Aug 24
2008
Marlaina
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INDIGO GIRLS
“Watershed”
Thought I knew my mind like the back of my hand,
The gold and the rainbow, but nothing panned out as I planned.
And they say only milk and honey’s gonna make your soul satisfied!
Well I better learn how to swim
Cause the crossing is chilly and wide.
Twisted guardrail on the highway, broken glass on the cement
A ghost of someone’s tragedy
How recklessly my time has been spent.
And they say that it’s never too late, but you don’t get any younger!
Well I better learn how to starve the emptiness
And feed the hunger
Up on the watershed, standing at the fork in the road
You can stand there and agonize
Till your agony’s your heaviest load.
You’ll never fly as the crow flies, get used to a country mile.
When you’re learning to face the path at your pace
Every choice is worth your while.
Well there’s always retrospect to light a clearer path
Every five years or so I look back on my life
And I have a good laugh.
You start at the top, go full circle round
Catch a breeze, take a spill
But ending up where i started again makes me wanna stand still.
Stepping on a crack, breaking up and looking back
Every tree limb overhead just seems to sit and wait.
Until every step you take becomes a twist of fate.
Aug 24
2008
Marlaina
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This one is especially for that “pathetic” person that simply needs to “go away”. REALLY… I do “feel for you”.
Godsmack
“Whatever”
And I wonder
Day to day
I don’t like you
anyway.
I don’t need your
shit today
you’re pathetic
in your own way.
I feel for you…
Better fuckin go away
I will behave…
You better fuckin go away!
I’m doing the best I ever did
I’m doing the best that I can
I’m doing the best I ever did…
I don’t need to
fantasize.
You are my pet
all the time.
I don’t mind if
you go blind.
You get what you get
until you’re through with mine
I feel for you…
Better fuckin go away
I will behave…
You better go away!
I feel for you…
Better fuckin go away
I will behave…
You better go away!
I’m doing the best I ever did
I’m doing the best that I can
I’m doing the best I ever did
Now go away!
[repeat 2 times]
I’m doing the best I ever did
[go away].
I’m doing the best that I can…
[go away]
[repeat 2 times]
I’m doing the best I ever did
I’m doing the best that I can
I’m doing the best I ever did
Now go away!
[repeat 3 times]
Yeah [left speaker then right]4X
I’m doing the best I ever did
[go away].
I’m doing the best that I can…
Aug 24
2008
Marlaina
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Well, last night was the night Nascar race at Bristol. And, while I like to make fun of the cars going in a circle, turning left, and waiting to crash, I have to admit to occasionally enjoying a race. I usually watch Bristol, Charlotte, Daytona, and Darlington (of course) every year. Last night I fell asleep before Bristol was over and Rick had to tell me about the fight at the end. Damn… I missed the drama.
Before that though, because we are such EXCITING people, we were watching our dog watch our rat. Yes, we’re sick. And here is the unedited photo to prove it.
Aug 22
2008
Marlaina
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… with freaking great jewelry, good shoes, and fabulous purses… all Compact friendly…
Aug 22
2008
Marlaina
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Cornwallis:“You know, this is not the conduct of a gentleman.”
Benjamin:“If the conduct of your officers is the measure of a gentleman, I’ll take that as a compliment.”
Aug 21
2008
Marlaina
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The Dance
by Cornelius Eady
When the world ends,
I will be in a red dress.
When the world ends,
I will be in a smoky bar
…..on Friday night.
When the world ends,
I will be a thought-cloud.
When the world ends,
I will be steam in a tea kettle.
When the world ends,
I will be a sunbeam through
…..a lead window,
And I will shake like the
…..semis on the interstate,
And I will shake like the tree
…..kissed by lightning,
And I will move; the earth will move
…..too,
And I will move; the cities will move
…..too,
And I will move, with the remains of
…..my last paycheck in my pocket.
It will be Friday night
And I will be in a red dress,
My feet relieved of duty,
My body in free-fall,
Loose as a ballerina
…..in zero gravity,
Equal at last with feathers
…..and dust,
As the world faints and tumbles
…..down the stairs,
The jukebox is overtaken at last,
And the cicadas, under the eaves,
…..warm up their legs.
Aug 18
2008
Marlaina
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I was recently made aware of the true feelings of someone I thought I knew. It turns out that she’s not the person that I thought she was for so many years. Or, more exactly, she is an even bigger hypocrite than I thought she was.
We’re all so inherently human. And we all make such huge mistakes throughout our lives. We’re all just muddling through life doing the best we can and trying hard to make the best decisions at the moment. If we’re completely honest with ourselves and each other, the truth is that we all have regrets and things we’d change if given the opportunity. That’s part of our humanity.
So, it has shocked me immensely that someone that I had always looked up to as being so open-minded and different in her own life choices would judge others for their similar personal decisions. I’m having a hard time trying to decide whether to be disappointed in her thoughts and behaviors or whether to be utterly disgusted with her. I am fighting the urge from deep down inside of myself to lean towards the latter.
Aug 16
2008
Marlaina
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I made it through another week. Of course, it’s not that my weeks are particularly hard. My jobs are fairly easy (for me, at least) and fun most of the time. But, I am spending a lot more time away from home than I have for the past few years. And I am always on the go with a million different projects. It’s a bit of a change to go from being able to “work” in your own space and time frame(z) to getting the kids and myself ready and out the door daily between 8 and 8:30am. Of course, I’m still home more than most people. But my time away does make me happy for the weekends.
Today I have inside house stuff to do… cleaning and such. Nothing really major but there are clothes to be washed, floors to be vacuumed, trash and recycling to be taken out, etc. I meant to sleep late and begin my chores sometime around 10. But I kept hearing a strange noise (that I never did figure out the origins of) every time that I drifted back off to sleep after getting up to let the dog out. Finally, I went to investigate and in doing so, I woke Tony by going into his room. I’d thought that he might be the originator of the noise but, alas, he was sound asleep until I stepped on a Hot Wheels car. The unfortunate part is that once Tony is awake, he is AWAKE and wide open. So much for sleep… Hello world at 6:30am on a Saturday.
On a happy note though, I went to bed early last night and finished the book I was reading. The rest of the world finished Breaking Dawn (the last book in the Twilight series… see info. here: http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/breakingdawn.html ) days ago. But, in order to be Compact friendly, even though I would have allowed myself a personal exception for this book, I had to wait for a used copy to become available and then be shipped to me. I even canceled my pre-order and waited patiently while all of my online vampire loving freak friends reported back about how wonderful the book was. It truly was worth waiting for though. Seriously… This is a quote from the cover, “When you loved the one who was killing you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give, how could you not give it? If it was someone you truly loved?” How could anyone not want to read that book? Yes, it’s sappy vampire BS. And yes, it certainly doesn’t even qualify as a respected piece of literary excellence. But, I’ve loved the series. Stephanie Meyer is no Poppy Z. Brite (nor are they even in the same league) but the books have been fun. Morgan gets to read it next. She’ll be happy that I read it so quickly… But, the poor kid has to do another book report before school starts on a classic before she can read a fun book. I’ll bet that she gets this report finished a lot more quickly than she did the last ones. Nothing like a new book on bloodsuckers to motivate a 13 year old…
Aug 15
2008
Marlaina
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“But maybe the rain
Isn’t really to blame
So I’ll remove the cause
But not the symptom”
No, I don’t expect most people to know this quote or care where it came from. It’s interesting though… I’ve been thinking about this all day. Cause vs. Symptom. Symptom vs. Cause. It applies to so many facets of life (and, no, I don’t want to elaborate). Just giving y’all something to ponder…
Oh… And it’s a quote from Rocky Horror… I must mention though that my favorite Frank-N-Furter quotes are actually these two:
- “Don’t be upset - It was a mercy killing. He had a certain naive charm, but no muscle.”
- “A mental mind fuck can be nice.“
Aug 14
2008
Marlaina
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I’m not always a big believer in these sorts of things. But, occasionally a horoscope resonates with me. To the left, you’ll see my horoscope for today from The Sun News (Myrtle Beach’s newspaper that I sometimes refer to as The Scum News). I knew it was going to be a good day because I found my missing earring this morning on my closet floor. This horoscope just reinforces my thoughts… and the thoughts I was having yesterday about cloning myself because I have many things working in my head right now…